Sunday, February 12, 2012

I know you feel it too.



I have these days, where I am supposed to be overly productive because I have a very busy week ahead of me, and I just... am not. Today is one of those days. I am sitting here, at my turquoise kitchen table, in my adorable apartment, by myself, with all of my books out on the table, doing what? My slippers are on, my hair is pulled up in the typical, "I don't care because I am happy" bun bobbing on top of my head, my sweatshirt pulled loose, and my yoga pants on.... but really, what am I doing? I have my laptop placed right on top of everything, bending my papers, creasing the pages in my books, smudging the pencil markings, and I just don't care. As my fingers glide across my pink keyboard, and I listen to Soko, Susie Suh, and Birdy, I am just not feeling like being in the homework mood. I am on pinterest, reading blogs, adoring over pictures of people, their happiness, and their love..... not having a single care in the world. So I decided to make a blog post myself.


Valentines Day is on Tuesday, and too all of the "single awareness" "valentines hating" "I don't want to spoil any girl because they are already spoiled" people.......... just stop reading and go to the library or something. I love Valentine's day. I have only had one real Valentine before and I have still always loved the holiday. It is not just for those in love, although it definitely is a bonus. Valentine's day is a day you get to eat red velvet cupcakes, pick all the carmel chocolates out of the box, wear a dress, curl your hair, take in the smell of fresh roses everywhere, sweet small kisses in public, red and pink wrapping, and oh my gosh have you ever been to Smith's on Valentine's Day? My favorite of favorite parts. The cute old men who have been married for 50+ years are still standing in front of the flowers trying to figure out which ones his wife will really love. Everyone is in this happy mood, because while they are surprising, they are getting surprised, and they are watching other people get surprised and ahh... sue me.... I love it. I love love and I love happy people. So everybody, Happy Valentine's Day!

Saturday, February 4, 2012

I'm here and I am happy.


I have to say that I am one of the happiest girls on Earth right now. I lost the cord for my camera.... so once again.... no pictures. sorry. but just for my own good, read it anyways.... I was really dreading coming home from Sweden as many of you know. I had the time of my life. I most definitely had ups and downs and was on a bit of a roller coaster ride of emotions while there but I loved every minute of it. Even though I was dreading home, and was scared the entire flight back to America for what was in store... I got everything I wasn't expecting. I came home in time for Christmas and had a blast with my family! I love them and there is not a better time to be around my family than at Christmas. The feeling of love I have for all of my family, cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents especially cannot be put into words. I love them. But the best part of my Christmas break was getting back together with Jon. Ahh I just love that boy. but Christmas break was far too long ago to make that the point of my post.... To make this a little bit shorter than I want it to be, for your sake, I am going to try and not ramble.... the best way to do that.... make a list. Why am I so incredibly happy at this moment? possibly the Loratab is helping *read on for details, but I have a million and a half things to be soo grateful for at this moment.

1. I have the world's best boyfriend. This last Tuesday was his Birthday and I LOVE his Birthday! I don't know why I get more excited about his birthday than my own... but I do. I love to see how happy he is and I love to give him gifts because for the one time a year he can't get mad at me for spoiling him just a little.  I threw him a little party that I made chocolate peanut butter and lemon cheesecake cupcakes for and I got him some gifts that once again, I was more excited about than he was, well maybe not, but I was excited. I can't even come close to repaying him for everything he does for me. He seriously is nothing short than amazing. 

2. I have 3 1/2 baby cousins (Easton is getting old!!)  I love them all soo much! I can only imagine how it feels to be the new parent, grandparent, uncle, or aunt of these adorable babies because I am soooo happy and I am a freaking great aunt!! I can't stop looking at pictures of these adorable little things. I feel so blessed to be a part of my amazing family.

3. I love my roommates. Katie, Kumi, Caisie, and Kenzi. Yes I am a bit of a loner because my name doesn't start or end with a ck   ee..... but I am over it. It is not possible to live with better girls. Our apartment is soo cute, it is never messy, everyone is always happy, and every time we are together, I feel so blessed to get to live with them. Plus they don't judge me for eating creepy food, leaving my books on the table, or attempting to make chewy chubakka noises for hours at a time. who couldn't love them?

4. My classes. I have homework EVERY single night, I have spent more time in the library in my first month of school than I have my entire college career, and I am still not getting A's on every assignment, but I love them. I like all of my teachers and I am feeling really good about my major. Switching my majors to Elementary and Special Education was a really hard thing for me to do, but everyday I am reminded of what a good decision that was. 

5. I freaking love my mom. She is really the greatest person on the planet. She gets really mad at me for having to hear things through the grapevine rather than by me myself, but I can't compete with the gossip queens that hit the bowling alley once a week for their three hours of talk about Jordan time. My mom is incredible though. She taught me how to be who I am. She is the most motivating person. All she cares about is the well being of her children. She has more respect for everyone around her than I can begin to give to the most important people in my life. She really is amazing and brightens my day everyday. 

and my post all of a sudden got really long........ typical. but I still have more to write.... 
just one quick story. 

This week my throat swelled up like a balloon (on the inside.) I woke up on Thursday morning and couldn't even swallow, I could barely breathe, everything around me was spinning in circles, and I was shivering as I laid in my bed with 4 blankets on top of me.... to say the least... I was sick. I called Jon and explained to him that I needed to be driven to the Wellness Center immediately. When I got there the nurse took one look in my throat and called for back up. After ten minutes of walking  in the door I had three nurses look at my tonsils, my blood drawn, my tonsils swabbed, an injection in my hip, and tears that could fill a bathtub running down my face. I have NEVER felt more pathetic in my life. They still are unsure as to what exactly was wrong with me... my tonsils were "weeping" blood and looked as if I had a severe case of strep, but the test came back negative. My roommates have taken enough pictures to make me feel like I belong in a health magazine so you can ask them what it really looked liked.... anyways.... After leaving I was immediately drinking a Jamba Juice thanks to Jon, and taking a nap while he took my doctors note into my class excusing me from school for the next two days. As soon as I got home I couldn't take the excruciating pain any more and I took my first Loratab. I have been laying in my bed for two days now, and have watched plenty of 90210, been babied by Jon and Katie, and have been living off of ice cream, rice, water, juice, and my medication. cross your fingers I get better soon. I can finally swallow like a normal human being, and I got out of bed today to try and do a few things on my own. I drove myself to the doctors, swallowed my pills with only one sip of water each, I got myself my food, I took a shower, I did dishes, and okay.... I took a four hour nap and finished an entire season of 90210.... but I was a million times more productive than yesterday.

That is plenty for now.... thanks for reading. xoxo